Bittersweet Life...

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

i dunno whether to love or hate him. argh... he is such an unappreciative, senseless and unsensitive person. he is also for one sided... but on the other hand, i dunno... i cant bring myself to praise him. argh... i hate staying at home. coz there's nth i can do. my family members, esp mom and dad, juz like have a hard time enjoying life. how the heck can i bond closer with them...? this really saddens me.. honestly. i cant, or dare at all, talk openly bout my probs with them, even with my mom. coz i dun comfortable. i relly dunno where to confide... if i go to my frens, i really dun wanna trouble and burden them with all fuckin life long probs. ugh! tmr is dad's bdae... hah! yesterday, mum wenta buy him a cake frm swesens.. still not at show it to him..supposed to be like today. but his mood is really crappy.. i dunno wat to say. for all i care, i dun care actually. heck care to him.... pity my mom sometimes. he can really be unsensitive at times.... we cant voice our views... so, put it this way. our house, our family and pur lifes are all based, directed and decided by tt asshole. oooohh... im goin to have a lot of sins by callin him tt... but u think i care? i certainly dun at all.... i pity my mum.. honestly. sometimes, he juz doesnt appreciate anything tt we do. 4yi, i didnt celebrate father's day. so, it's like better off saying tt i dun have a father. u ppl mite think im the unappreciative one here... but nooo... u gotta noe me and live under on roof with me to understand. but i advice u not too... coz it gonna be living hell. no fun and no love. argh.... i hate home. i hate sch- sometimes. i hate life. i hate death. i dunno wat's gotten into me... maybe the way he has been acting today... his 'i-dun-care-so-u-better-lisen-and-not-bother-me' attitude and expression... so, we can trigger him off huh? well, u think i dun dare? i've did tt several times... those who really noe, mite have seen me break down. argh... pissing me off....

tot of bloggin bout yesterday's ndp.... but, oh well. thank u to those frens of mine.... for those times tt u have comforted me, in any way. really appreciate it.... sorry to bore u peeps with this fucked up entry... well, it's my life. bear with it.

Smashed into pieces at 8/10/2004 05:55:00 PM